Mandy's

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY AND HAPPY NEW YEAR

2010-02-13T23:53:00.005+08:00

It's been sometime since im update. Im lazyyyyyy/ Ok but since today is a boring day, i've plenty of time to update hheeeeeeeeee.

Basically i just went to grandma's place for dinner, how about all of you?!

Happy valentine's day to all of you ppl!! ^^

This is one of the few favourite valentine's day gift i received. It's from calista kang. I like it ^^

We did gift exchange on fri when supposedly it was a new yr celebration in school. Haha, it was an awesome and shoort day i like. :>

So actually i got quite emotional preparing the gifts and writing those cards. You know.. It's like the last yr to exchnage gifts in that kinda atmosphere. I can feel the loveeeee spreading arnd the school hall when we give each other presents on fri. HAHA. Sounds exaggerating but that's a fact! I love all of those whom i've given out the presents to ^^

Hope all of you ppl have an enjoyable valentine's day, and happy new yr.

I'll be bk with photos again!! Much loveeeeee

Randomness

2010-01-19T19:37:00.002+08:00

Sometimes life is just unfair, you yearn for someone so much but they just dont pause to take a look at you. Some ppl will do all you can to prove that you really love someone, but yet you got nothing in return at the end of the day. Especially girls, when there's nothing else you can do.. You can only cry alone or find some friends to talk to ( but most of them do not really understand though.......) . Sometimes if you just bottle them up, it'll worsen your emotions and breakdown eventually. And sometimes many of us feel so jealous of ppl who seems to be very good in everything, able to get what they want and so on..... When you see a guy telling a girl sweet little stuffs like, "if you are fat dont worry i'll jog with you" or "even during the worse times i'll be with you for sure, fret not." you often smack yourself saying, "Fuck why isn't this guy mine?!"
Well................
I think its kinda fated, not? :<

Jealousy really is something which is so fatal to my emotions. That explains why im a emotional kid. Sometimes no matter how hard you work towards a goal, or even for someone. You just dont get what you want. Despite putting your whole heart in, you wont be able to reach them. How sad........ Only you yourself can see how much effort you've put in, no others can. Some ppl are just so realistic and straightforward, that they wont make decisions using human's feeling.. whyyyyyyyy

Why cant some ppl just open their eyes big and see who are the ones that have always put in effort.....

Wow this is quite a emotional post huh huh huh......
Shall end here ^^

"Breakthru camp 2010"

2010-01-16T08:33:00.002+08:00

Just ended the awesome 3 day camp ytd. And sad to say i miss all of themmmmmmmm
This is seriously the only camp that i've enjoyed in my secondary school life.. Hmm i guess it'll always hold the memories in my heart. Actually on the first day of camp i was really reluctant to go! haha but im glad i went. Cos this camp is too good to be missed!! And if i didnt go i wouldn't know many more ppl. All the camp leaders they're like angels. hahahaa

Ppl who know me would know im not the camp type of ppl but i really never get myself involve so much in camp before lor. This proves that this camp is really awesome. Haha

Am missing all the afternoon activities, group time, decorating our house walls, interacting and laughing at everyone. The cat fights, the irritating cube thingy and of cos mass dance.
The mass dance got the whole 4e5n moving!! Like practically the whole hall dancing. LOL. Never seeen the hall so lively before LOL.

The mass dance song was tik tok so i guess everyone was kinda familiar with it and learnt it so quickly. Lol! And towards the end everyone wanted to dance over and over again. Haha!!

So when ytd the camp ended, of cos icry again la. Everyone knows im a emotional kid right.. Lol! Like all of a sudden dont bear to end this camp, dont bear to leave this cute group of ppl. :< Though its just for 3 days but it really bonded everyone tgt you guys knowww :< We did so many activities tgt and really enjoyed lor. Can the school arrange this camp again everyweek? 1 week 2 times. Each time 3 days. LOL!!
Alright, so i of cos learnt alot through this camp too. Glad i came if not i wont even know this batch of 4express ppl.. Would still be having this stupid mindset that express ppl and normal academic ppl do not click and stuffs. hahaha.

I miss all of you guys!! :< BREAKTHRU CAMP 2010 PURPLE HOUSE. <33333333333333333

Back to school.........

2010-01-07T18:33:00.004+08:00

Hi all! Haven't been updating much due to tight scheule of work. Work can be tiring but// Compared to school i guess work is better. Lol! But well.. It's the last yr alr, cannot imagine time flies so fast and this yr im gonna take o levels alr! Shall really study study and study. Last minute studying doesnt really help much! :<>

Chiuwee........

Shiyun, chiuwee ^^

So many funny memories flashed through just by looking back at these pictures. Hahaha all the funny actions we always do to make each other laugh...... Shall keep them to my heart! :> They are really funny and more-than-colleagues friends. Gonna miss them alot, but we'll still meet up!

As i was browsing through pictures, i found this picture very candid and random. LOL!

So the holidays just ended like this and school have started almost a week. Shall aadjust myself bk to studying mode and start mugging. :>

Tired na.

2009-11-27T00:40:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone :>

Have pictures to update but currently super tired with my work. Like 12 hours everyday and i only get to rest on every thursday..... Omg

So many ppl's birthday going on this month! Got pics to update k wait for me. ^^

Might be going to wavehouse this sat, not sure yet. Bet everyone's having fun with their soon-gonna-end hols. But im working. Havent even enjoyy fully. Sad!

:> Update sooon!

Time

2009-11-19T18:08:00.001+08:00

Cried myself awake today because of a nightmareeeeeeeeeeee. It's been long since i cry myself awake. :/

sick

2009-11-12T02:11:00.004+08:00

Am sick already. This is good cos i like to be sick, but not when im working.
I cannot breathe properly sucks big time. And working back there in far east was great and had happy times and all as usual ^^

But

The baad thing is i got tempted with all the pretty clothes and have the urge to visit those shops and advance my pay to buy them. >:

Overall, i still love working there! Esp with good colleagues. ^^

Anwwwwwwwwwwwww
Pplease take note of this:

*Am selling tics for a mixed age party on the 16th nov at zirca! <: Zirca seldom hold events for underage parties! This might be the first and last one.. so please come tgt and party tgt. ^^^^ FYI: There's already 7 dj comfirmed for that party and it'll be absolute fun i predict! wahahaha so excited! And and the tickets to enter is actually i disc containing mixtape songs!!! Thats damn worth isn't it? Contact me for more details. ^^

Add me on msn or email me at: short_manting@live.com
Or text me at : 90253436

Moment of folly.

2009-11-06T18:21:00.000+08:00

How sad. :'(

Unsettled.

2009-11-05T01:20:00.002+08:00

Thursday will be my last day at heeren working. Monday going bk to my previous job at far east! It's such a pity i wont be able to work at heeren anymore, but i've my reasons. The colleagues there are so nice to me, making me feel sad when i resign.. Though most of them are old enough to be my mother, but im really happy to work with them too. At least i learnt new things about life, :D

I pray that they will find a suitable colleague to work with them in time to come. Hugs*

Working bk in far east means that i will be working tgt with my lovely chiuwee and miaomiao and co. wahahahaahhhaa. I think it's gonna be fun though at times i can be fuming mad at the working hours and dying of stress to hit the sales target. LOL.

More work = more $$$$$$$

Update really soon.

5 november

Chances.

2009-11-03T02:16:00.004+08:00

I never fail to cry when i see this video each time.

This is a very touching one. Have you learnt a lesson from this? ^^

I see you in the club ^^

2009-11-02T00:25:00.002+08:00

Wahahahahahaha. Halloween was fun fun fun fun fun in soho!! Sad cos it's the last prty in there :'( Happy cos HALLOWEEN WAS REALLY GREAT. Music, atmosphere evrything was (Y) !

I text sheryl to ask how her halloween was then we discussed and exchanged our happy events to each other. LOOOOOOL Funny.

Hope everyone enjoyed their halloween too ^^

Happy halloween!

2009-10-31T13:04:00.001+08:00

Halloween is here! Going to social house tonight, anticipating it to be a fun one ^^ Hope all of you enjoy your parties too!

holyshit

2009-10-27T02:13:00.004+08:00

Okay just some pictures of my birthday with sheryl and co,

:D

No need to mention how much i love,

(Y)

2009-10-23T09:37:00.002+08:00

It's been sometimes since i blogged.
I've got pictures with me but just lazy to upload them.. Because i think phototbucket is fucking slow and i dont like to wait.

And i think blogger is getting boring and maybe thats why i dont have feel to blog. HAHA.

So......
Im thinking of changing it to tumblr.com ??

Looks pretty to me. heheee

So will you ppl help me by giving out suggestions about the changing to tumblr.com ? :D

ASAP OK. Thanksssss

See you next yr, hopefully.

2009-10-09T10:59:00.005+08:00

Quick update cos photos are piling up alr.
But anw, life after n level is quite cool. Relax, but boring. LOL.
Alright.
29th september2009

Angelina's birthday! :D

Happy 16th birthday aunty!! We were in the midst of preparing for our upcoming exams during that week, but still managed to chillax for a day for her celebration!

30th september 2009
Pam's birthday!! :D
We went out for dinner with jason and sherman first, then a surprise at calista's place!

Forgot when?

I forgot the date for this day but it was lantern festival, and was celebrating ahhao's birthday!
We went to music thai that night, and home after that. :D

Like her birthday like that lol!

Jasmineeee

Uncountable brothers LOL

Happy birthday :D

Ok, i will update again. Tmr's my first day of work! :)

Happy brithdays!

2009-09-30T01:11:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEREAST PAMELA! (30 SEPTEMBER2009')
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANGELINA LIM(29SEPTEMBER2009)

I LOVE THE TWO OF YOU DEARLY.

HUGSSSSS. <3

Unique and different

2009-09-28T01:09:00.008+08:00

Back to post! This week is like a self study week for our school's 4na students. Boring, i want to go school only. LOL.
Very near to my next pp alr just like.. 7 days= 1 week away till my next pp starts. Really very scared k. I never took an exam so serious before, maybe i just realise the importance of promoting to sec5. :/

Er, last wed was my brother's ROM so get ready for a pictureful post. ^^

Firstly,
22september2009
Happy birthday chiuwee! Loveyou alot! <3

23september2009
My brother's big day! :D

Getting prepared

Then.. After some time, we're all ready to set off!! :)
1) Mummy and sis in law

SET OFF!

On the way, it was a long journey tired.

Reached ROM just on time, a il rush though

Entering.......

Their lifeime journey starts here.

Look at my brother's happy face. LOL

Awwwwwww

So after the whole registrating process, photo taking session was next.

We played with the photographer's cam when she was away for toilet break :/

My pretty sis in law! Skinny like bone!

Afterwards went to dont know where for shoots :D

Up next was fullerton hotel!

There were very very pretty sceneries!

Favourited 1,2.

Heavy right, sympathise my brother. LOL

Smile until so happy! LOL

Sweeeeee

Esplanade

Everyone was like so lethargic alr, smiling throughout the whole day.

After photo taking was fanily dinner! It's been a real long time since we last sat down as a whole family for dinner. Thankfully everything went well and caught up a little with my cousins. But no pictures of them cos cam went lowwwww.

Lastly,

I was really elated and touched to see my dear brother settling down with a nice girl. I wish the both of you a blissful marriage and i hope you'll cherish each other tight k. Rmb how i cried in the Rom room when noone else was tearing?! haha! From this day onwards both of you are as one and never as individuals k. Do not quarrel too often! Rmb the rules of a happy marriage :)

I'll be back again! Wait for me. :)

It dont matter to me, but does it matter to you? :(

2009-09-18T15:45:00.002+08:00

Life's as boring as ever. Except that this month is quite eventful. My brother's getting married on the 23rd, next wed! But it'll just be a simple dinner among us. :D

Then 29th and 30th will be angelina's and pam's birthday. Pocket big hole! LOL.

Left 18 more days to my next pp, i think. hmmmmmmm

Nothing much to update too, cos i have not been going out to enjoy myself! Very sad and boring life but no choice.

When i want holidays, thn there's only busy school life. When i dont want holidays (like now), i often find that holidays are approaching. Like a sad only?

Im going crazy soon.
Maybe you're more than a stupid eyecandy. But what's on your mind?
TSK.

muddle-headed

2009-09-09T17:58:00.003+08:00

Finished 2 pps of my 'n' level alr! English was alright, but ss................
Feel like crying. I really am stupid. Veryyyyyyyyy. I studied for healthcare and prayed so hard for it to come out in the exams, and ya it did. But i didn't understand the question so i attempted another one instead(everyone said tht was the most difficult one). Fml.

So i studied so long for a poor result. I can predict my ss result as a f9 liaooooo. NVM. I'll get a1 for history k. LOL.

So..... I'll hv my short holidays this week. Update with pics soon ^^

Byeeeee.

The last lap

2009-09-03T14:47:00.002+08:00

Com was down so didn't update recently, morever did not have the time to do so.
So recently was very very occupied with my revision, 4 more days to my first n level pp. So i wont be updating for the time-being too..
Less than a month before i graduate! This is not good at all. Want to go to school somemore, for some reasons. LOL.

A day without revising makes me feel very uneasy. Cannot imagine if im gonna fail my n's.

:'(

Woke up in fear, when i tot i had someone with me. But not.

2009-08-11T15:43:00.002+08:00

It's really very scary and yet, very real to know that im reaching the last laps of my 4 yrs of education in secondary school. It means "N" levels.
Got bk prelims result today.. Hmmm all i can say is that i should have studied harder. Way harder when i was in sec3. But at least i only failed maths so far of which the results i've gotten bk.
I believe today was quite a depressing day. We know where we're standing but have to push even harder.. Ugh, who cares anw. It's the last lap alr. Just work really hard.
I dont want to be someone worthless and fail n levels. I swear from this moment onwards i'll study real hard.
Can you believe i actually teared upon hearing the cruel facts that we're struggling right now? It's really saddening.
hmm but i will try my best anw. For the sake of my mother and myself.
Pam and calista, we must study hard tgt. The next time we cry is when we pass too well and not fail too hard. :)

BB, off to study~

True friends will stand out for you at th right times

2009-08-10T03:18:00.005+08:00

Ughh. Extremely disappointed with my weekends except that meeting up with sheryl and co was great.. Hmmmmm didn't go to supper club (again) because of some fucktards. When i got home i really got the urge to club. But on the other hand, it was a good night spent with sheryl and co too. hehheeeeee.

So pictures:

Was didikorkor's birthday. Twins, happy birthday!! They're a pair of adorable twins. Very guailan yet, you wont bear to scold them. But they really made em and xuele flare up when they accidentally spilled water on our legs!!!

Awww so loving

We headed to aunty's house ltr to rest a little. Then took some pictures tooo ^^

And..... Miss this friend of mine so much. Webcam-ed her just now, haha. Shall catch up soon ^^

Thats all! Updates soon i promise.

made my heart jump one two steps

2009-08-08T21:10:00.005+08:00

Was a last minute meet up, went to airport to catch up with joanna and relax a little! I really wanna go overseas manxzx.

Supper club or bbq tmr im not sure either.

But tmr will be fun for sure :D

BB.

so cutexzxzxz

2009-08-07T04:09:00.002+08:00

WHY IS SUPER JUNIOR SO CUTE!?!?!?! Even the fat ones too........ LOL!

Love super junior ttm from today onwards. HAHAHA.

Choices............. ?

2009-08-06T19:13:00.002+08:00

Finally got to rest all the way till tuesday.

Not everyone's perfect in anyway. But everyone's trying hard to live their live to the fullest, while some are unable to maybe due the certain circumstances? Though most of the time in my life everything's going very bad, but you dont hv any choice. Like you wont want to be ugly, you wont want to be fat, you wont want to be living in poverty. Just some random thoughts.

* Talked to xuele just now, damn funny once again.

Really wonder why life is so unfair. Some girls are really pretty ttm!! hahaha.

*faster contact me for tics at supper club this sunday!!*

Enjoyable sadness

2009-08-03T16:58:00.003+08:00

Any plans for national this coming sunday? :)

THE PARTY OH THE NATION!! 9TH AUGUST Back To The Future@SUPPERCLUB2030 – 0400Come this August 9, celebrate our nation’s birthday at the prestigious and luxurious Supper Club !

Comprising of a 4million dollar renovation which perfectly fits the 4decade and going age cosmic theme of Singapore ! With the Fit-Your-Future theme come dressed as what you’d love to be in the future !

(REDWHITE=BORING)Come dressed up in your deepest dreams and aspirations and get you and your friends wheezed off into the fast futuristic priority queue ! Witness the beginning of a uberlicious lovin’ nurse unravel from that plain boring girl-next-door ! Drool as that skinny punk transforms into the hot national soccer player !

Plus,state-of-the-art sound systems, prepare to numb your mind and shake that booty to the beats of our future; elektro & r&b with our resident DJ TOK and MC S.O.F to kick up your night baby ! Make yourselves at home with an all-white space with huge beds and gigantic fluffy pillows, it’s hard not to feel delirious in heaven !This is going to be the best dress-up party to-date!

So what’re you waiting for ! Come dressed as “doctor” and go home with a “nurse” by your side !(OR VICE VERSA OF COURSE!) Lean back, relax and enjoy as the alcohol oozes through your blood and pumps your head for an adventuristic futuristic watch on the top in the VIP lounges for the 18 and above
So much is said, and the future is near, Singapore’s birthday is coming near, so celebrate it with us here !
FOR TICKETS RESERVATIONS AND/OR INTERESTED TICKET DISTRIBUTORS;
CONTACT:
Mandy

short_manting@live.com
*I know my email very hilarious but pls don’t laugh **
Can add me up on msn or mail me!

Spend your national day in the club, definitely a better choice than staying at home, hope to see you ppl there!

Tickets are selling at $18 only!!!!
^^

THANKS!

UPDATES.

Hi, bk with pics.

Ytd went to st james flea with sheryl, last min. I was only given approximately 45 mins to prepare and off to meet her ^^

Flea was (thumbs up) ^^

Spent 66 bucks damn worthwhile. About... 14.5 per item?

LOL.

Like finally i updated my wardrobe.

Got home pretty early, to study.

Hardcore TTM? lol.

Alright, pics.

BB.

Contact me for the tics this coming sunday ^^

Wtf was that supposed to be?

2009-08-01T17:42:00.002+08:00

Another saturday.

Not gonna go out. Had been studying for the past few days like mad.

Until i really get damn tired, god.

I want to buy so many things, dueba lenses esp.

Meeting joanna tmr for flea @st james! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Never shop for a long long time, so tmr gonna buy all i can!

Gonna meet my liwen and sheryl on monday. :DDDDDDDDDDDD

Anw, ytd was my husband LZX's birthday. HAHAHA.

Happy birthday xiang xiang^^^^^

love you very much.

BB.

A big "boo" to you

2009-07-28T15:12:00.004+08:00

Ok, haven't been taking pictures with ppl recently.

Basically, last week end was about gg out with rebecca and 1000 steps last fri, and sat with joanna.

Sunday i lock myself at home to attempt to study, and i did? Not.

HAHA.

Hmmmmmmmmm.

I will update more with pics of others soon.

Today's pp was....... bad.

Facts

2009-07-27T18:13:00.002+08:00

My sis's having fever, flu, everything!

Heartpain*

Im sick too, but i wish i can have fever from my sis. Really very heartpain to see a 8 yr old girl swallowing so much medicine. :'(

I suddenly love her so much. LOL!

Ok bb gtg. Need to tug her to sleep now.

And my prelims are here i havent study finish. Time is running outttt.

Wtf life im leading.

I miss sheryl, liwen, jasmine. (again?) LOL.

I miss mummy! If there's a nomination for world's noblest mother i will use my lifr to vote for her. haha.

Love my mother to the maxxxxxx. She's in taiwan so sad.

Ok bai bai. I promise pictures soon. <3

Sincerity.

2009-07-24T23:43:00.001+08:00

Weekends are here again!!!!

Must enjoy to the fullest, so tmr i'll be meeting joanna!

Update soon! Bye!

THE END! (:

2009-07-22T01:32:00.002+08:00

SHARE A GOOD NEWS.

I FINALLY COMPLETE MY ENTIRE COURSEWORK!!!!!!!!

Meaning, no need to stress over my coursework anymore.

Finally. When i printed that 30 pages out i really feel like i just gave birth to a 7 month old baby.

LOL!

PAMELA!! No more coursework~~

Bye, off to sleep.

Bloody fuck

2009-07-19T01:51:00.002+08:00

I SPENT MY WEEKENDS AT HOME.

HOW WONDERFUL.

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL WITH SO MANY UGLY PPL.........

Damn bored!!!! I cannot spent my weekends like this! Another hectic and tiring week is coming.

Time is my precious baby.

2009-07-16T23:33:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY.

These few days really damn tiring, homework non stop. But no choice got to try my best, exams approaching in no time.........

I got the answer to my questions.

2009-07-14T23:36:00.002+08:00

Im just trying to be a sweet ass by saying i love

sheryl, liwen and jasmine

before i sleep.

Although today when i cry jasmine didn't contribute anything but i still love her as much.

LOL!!

cos i didn't text her, i know she's busy getting darker. (LOL)

Thanks alot, hehe.

*hugs*

Meet ups, weekends? :)

2009-07-14T15:45:00.002+08:00

My headache's not gone yet. :(

Got so many school work to complete!

Sometimes i really dont wanna study anymore, but on second thoughts.

I dont wanna disappoint my mother too. It's not like i totally got no interest in studying..

Just some factors affecting me.

Should hang on. 2 more months onlyy.

Sometimes it's just harder to achieve something simple.

Liwen, i feel like talking to you lea. :'(

Dilema

2009-07-13T20:44:00.002+08:00

Omg siaaaa. wtf is happening to me.
Never eat also want to vomit, eat also vomit everything out.
Dont ask me i pregnant or what, lol. Never do anything how the fuck i get pregnant!

And my headache is spinning me round and round.
Singing: you spin my head right round right round ~

I feel sick, like im gonna fall sick soon. F.
Although i love to fall sick..... but not at this time. Got so many work incomplete, and exams are approaching in no time. Cannot afford to be sick nowwwww.

Life is boring. Life is meaningless.
Life will be so much better with free flow of cash, free flow of laughter, free flow of love, free flow of time.

Bye, im off to let my head spin me right round. hahaha.

2 yrs ago, and now.

2009-07-13T11:36:00.004+08:00

Friday, 10th july.

Happy birthday tianfu!! haha.

Friday went out with sheryl, liwen and the rest.

It was tianfu birthday, celebrated at music thai. :)

After music thai was club trust!

So much happened over there..

BUT

in the end, everything's alright.

Pictures!

Tianfu!

His expression like damn sad like that. LOL

Nelson look sexy here, hahahahaha!

& The girls. :)

With their godmother. :)

So that was all!

Sunday met them again for another round of music thai. Before that went to cine for transformer! :D

after music thai everyone was damn tired alr, lol.

So we went to aunty's house for lepak-ing.

Sheryl wants to sleep but of cos, nonono. haha.

Went home at 6+. Really damn tired loooo.

Can you tell me what does those actions mean on that friday night?

Ass

2009-07-11T17:35:00.002+08:00

Met with my best ytd. Liwen, sheryl, jasmine. :)
I drunk again!!! But i realise they love me alot. HAHAHAHA.
Bye, update soon.

You always do unexpected things all of a sudden, leaving me pondering over what you've done.
what is this!! lol.

I miss the old times when i used to laugh at the littlest thing.

2009-07-10T16:30:00.002+08:00

OMG.

So many schoolwork, so many thoughts.

So many stressssssss.

So many problems.

But so little comfort i have, so little warmth i get.

So little love i received.........

So little determination and courage.

It feels like a part of me is gone, ass.

It's becoming a habit to vomit out my food. haha.

Thats about it.

2009-07-09T23:42:00.002+08:00

I should just shut the fuck up and die.
I seriously dont mean anything. Enough said, i dont wanna say these anymore. I feeel tired alr, i feel upset enough that i cant be anymore upset.
I feel like a fool and nothing else.
From the bottoms of my heart, i wish you two all the best.

Im not the generous kind, but im not the wicked kind either. I wont want to cause any problems between you both, never.

So what if i really feel god damn awful right now, it doesn't matter anymore.
Tc and all the best.
This will be the last post about alll these, no more. Because i really feel tired and really feel like one idiot typing all these. For what? Sympathism? Nah, no need.

Im to blame for all these, then.

So many doubts, but you cleared them. Now, who's gonna bring the trust bk again?

2009-07-08T22:06:00.002+08:00

As i read through those msgs, i think. From the start till now, i wonder whats true in those msgs. I actually still smiled as reading them, till the recent ones. I teared, what was all this all about?
Told you i cannot take anymore failures in r/s, and yet you failed me throughout.
No, im not blaming you. Im not...... Sigh. I just dont understand why. Why are you able to say all those stuffs when you dont mean it. Why do this to me. Why even lie to me for the reason of break up.
It's not about minimizing the pain, dont you know it would hurt even more when im the one who saw it with my own eyes about the truth? Lies lies lies. That was all about us.
Pains me to see and feel how loving you both are...... but what else can i do except for seeing just that?
I wished for you to come bk to me, but somehow it feels so impossible.
It's alright now, i feel so...........

Tc!

You're in my heart, but im not in yours.

2009-07-08T12:26:00.010+08:00

Continuation of updates.

okk, so...

Sunday, 5july.

St james barnone! (: (:

If only it was held at powerhouse instead!

Barnone is fucking small, fucking hot.

But nonetheless, its still enjoyable. My favourite st james what. lol.

Went with joanna to far east first to get her pay and stuffs. Thn headed to st james alr.

The only two pictures we took in barnone.

That night was a lil..... fun? but, turned abit moody after that. No idea why.

The dancefloor was packed, but i like. lol.

Damn hot la, i keep sweating. Then there was two guys asking me. You wear jacket not hot meh? hahaha. I hot i also dont want to take out lea, LOL.

Music was soso, quite boring.

Uh, i hope the next one would be a better one.

Waited for my mother in office, thn went home tgt.

Behind those smiles, who knows how much tears i've shed?

Saturday, 4 july.

Was damn tired. Slept all the way till 4plus rang up jervis and went to meet the guys.

As usual they fucking played lan.

lollllll.

Here, have to thank sherman and jervis.

Though you guys didnt say much, but. I know you guys want me to be ok and not like this. Crying and crying, thinking and thinking. Thanks tho.

And jason stop sigh-ing. lol.

So if you see this post must tag me. LOL!

After that went to meet liwen and sheryl :DDDD

Went to cine first, to accompany them eat. Nelson and tianfu was there too.

After that walked to bangkok thai.

Kinda boring over there, thn went to club trust to find aunty and her friends.

Better there, but really not for my age. LOL.

Cos they sang those hokkien techno. LOL!!

But when it was catwalk..... Me and sheryl damn excited held hands again.

Those guys were, wooooo. hahahaha.

They eyed on number 99. Liwen even ask ahyi to give tht guy flower so that he can come to our table to talk to us. LOL damn funny.

Thn tht sheryl dont know at there jin zhang what. HAHHAA.

In the end also liwen win lo, talk so much. TSK. STILL EXCHANGE NUMBER. LOL!!

Thn chillax a lil, drank a lil.

Si liwen want me drunk, keep asking me to drink all in one go.

Say nvm, drunk we drunk tgt.

So after that, i really abit drunk alr. Cried again, tht was like continuosly for tht few days.

fuck tht.

But my best were there. Thanks sheryl and liwen alot alot. Love all of you so much, and jasmine also. <3

It was a long and teary night, but i still enjoyed myself.

Played till morning thn went to 747 to eat and went home!!!!

At bangkok thai.

LOL.si sheryl you pose what! lol!

Liwen <3

My best, hehe.

& nelson.

The guys. We went to mindscafe after that, played those games. fun.

Wei jinn's answer for this question was, "my mother's the sex." LOL!

Damn scary lo, like gonna topple any moment!

jason

sherman

*the end*

Numbed.......

2009-07-07T20:29:00.009+08:00

Alright, updates for the past few days.

Not all are up, still left with two days of updates. Last sat and sun.

Be patient!

Friday, 3 july

Met joanna and head to town, job hunting. Talked, she keep me accompany because the day before was one of the worse days of my life.

I saw her too. sigh.

Pictures!

I went over to joanna's house and we spent the night tgt. haha. Chatted and lazed around and went home in the morning. (:

Wednesday, 1 july.

Met with the guys and my dearest girls!

Jason, jervis, wei jinn, sherman, jeremy neo, aidan.

Calista, Pamela, Eunice. :D

Went to watch ice age, the long tics. haha.

Then calista and pam went off first leaving me and the guys. They fucking went to play lan.

zz.

& jervis. (:

& jason, forever so shag face. LOL .

& wei jinn, that funny asshole. haha.

& sherman! :D

After that i met joanna after her work.

Usual places, cine. went home with the last train.

All the accidentally laugh outs one.

Keep taking these kinda shots, see liao also sian. LOL.

That was how i led my life for the past few days. Common, nothing special. lol. Actually i know i wasn't really happy. But, so what? At least i have friends arnd me ^^ but joanna going bk to thailand alr!!!!!! fuck, who's gonna be my all-time-favourite girl now? :(

I dont want to be alone, really.
I dread hearing promises now.... Hate everything so much, hate myself.

Tears, i cannot control anymore.

2009-07-06T15:39:00.001+08:00

Even though it's all over, and i know it was just a game of stupidity.

But..........

Sigh, i love you. Tc?

Life's so unfair to take away the one i love and give it to someone else.

2009-07-06T04:35:00.002+08:00

Barnone sucks, st james still rocks.

Music no good, ambience no good. Fucked up crowd, smelly environment. hahaha.

Cos everyone sweating like free flow~ (damn smelly) Dont raise your armpits pls, smelly ppl. LOL.

But i still enjoyed myself, at least im not crying at home.

Everything beats than staying at home to cry. Like fucking emotional only........

:'(

I'll upload the pictures tmr! Many pics to upload, thought of it makes me fucking tired worxzxzxz.

nvm, if not my blog gonna turn wordy so very soon.

Numb myself with alcohol, keep myself occupied

with outings. This isn't what i want at all.......

I hope you're mine, but yet. I know it's impossible.

So i've to be so fucking fake to say, last long.

Ytd was suppose to say, "sibei happy 3 wks anniversary"

But i guess it doesn't hold any meaning anymore...................

So imma substituition? motherfucking heartpain...........

2009-07-05T14:43:00.002+08:00

Ok, ytd went to meet sheryl and liwen!!! (:

But first group of ppl i met was jervis and gang. The group of dota freaks. LOL.

Luckily i went out, if not. I sure cry my life away!!

Readers, actually im fucking upset. Really.......

Sigh.

I know you wont read my pathetic blog, but.. Im really damn disappointed. Damn sad, damn heartpain.

From the start till now, it wasn't even true. Sigh......

Ok cont.

Accompanied them to play dota for a short while, wasn't good at it so i quit.

Otherwise kena scolding again. LOL!

Headed to minds cafe. It as fun down there... hehe.

I even lost in one game and was asked to take number from a guy. LOL!!

But i never save la, lol.

Then 8+ went to meet sheryl and liwen.

Cine>> Bangkok thai >> Club trust

hehe. Fun whenever im with them.

Ytd really quite upset. Kinda drunk and i started crying..

Seriously everytime i drunk i seldom cry one lor. Except for one time and tht was like ages ago?

LOL.

Everyone asked me not to cry. Aww, very touching.

Liwen

You were the first to hug me if i didn't rmb wrongly. Seriously all these mean alot to me.. At least when im feeling real awful i've friends around me like you. I rmb vividly she said anything about r/s call her to talk. She will understand me. Then she hugged me ask me to hush.

Liwen, you know also right? Whenever you've such problems can call me too. We were there for each other when we cried on different occasions.

LOL!!

Love you alot, best friend.

Sheryl

You're not very good at words and always give me harsh comments but i like. LOL!!!

I know you do love me ^^ hehe.

If i still rmb abit, i think you did hug me too. Yes you did. LOL.

love you alot, for your never ending laughters tht made me laugh my ass off.

hahaha.

Thats what's bout you isn't it? haha!

Man, i love you alot too!! Best friend. (:

Joanna

Darling!!! (:

Here's yours. haha!!

But i really need to thank you for keeping me company these few days.

Somehow we have common habits and thoughts. Dont feel bad and useless as a friend of mine for not being able to cheer me up.

Girls are like this right?

When we're alone we tend to be even more emotional. Sigh...

Really not your fault i love you!!

Pls come to me too, whenever you've problems.

We'll be each other's listening ear ya?

Love, <3>

LETS CLUB TONIGHT. HAHAHAHHA.

And lastly i have to thank my mother. :D Mummmy i love you for having breakfast with me and eating tuna sandwich tgt tht day. haha.

Alright, anyone st james tonight?!!!?!?!

I'll be there tonight.

Anyone interested in st james tonight pls come!! I'll be selling tickets. (broke, damn)

See you guys if possible!!

BIGGEST HUGS TO MY BEST FRIENDS.

It takes time, i guess? Sigh.

When you said, "i cannot betray my feelings. When im with you my heart is with **" it really makes me feel like a fool.

Damn.

Sigh, i still wish you all the best. If in time to come you think she's not for you, can you come bk to me? :'(

I could hear my heart making noise 24/7

2009-07-04T01:04:00.002+08:00

Hi all. Im at joanna's house right now.....

Yea, feeling upset again. Sigh, i dont know how long must i keep myself like this.

Keeping myself busy, just to make sure i wont continue thinking of those shits that screw me up....

It's not the first time that such heart-wreaking stuffs happened to me, just tht one after another, worse and worst.........

I just didn't expect all these. Sigh.......

Lies, i cant afford to find out more.

Trust, no longer trusting those.

You? Cant stop thinking.

Sigh, cant wait for sunday. St. james!!!!!!!!!

Im just trying to do things to make myself smile more! Any idea what else?

Feel like crying you know.......

I guess it's true that dreams do come true (bad ones), while promises are meant to be broken.

Fuck that big timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I seriously dont know what to do, i keep sigh-ing non stop.

Stop tht mandy sim, but what can i do?

Im a loser indeed.

Boooooooos, for me.

Alright, readers pls tag me. I might feel better after reading tags? lol.

I love you, but is this what i deserve?

You taught me how to trust, but now you taught me how to not trust ppl again.

Sigh, pls come bk to me anyway.....

Thank joanna, for keeping me accompany. <3

Again

2009-07-02T14:06:00.001+08:00

Cant stop crying when i type all these out...........

I love you :(

2009-07-02T11:21:00.002+08:00

No mood to upload pictures. met up with joanna ytd..

Dont give up, i love you really.

I cannot say anything for now, i really dont know.

Dont give up on us.

Overwhelming thoughts

2009-07-01T11:37:00.002+08:00

What does "I love you" mean to you?

A fullstop to end every msg and call?

Or just a way to comfort me?

Or, it just comes and goes without second thoughts whether you mean it or not?

Every "I love you" would become meaningless if you're not sincere about it.

I love you. :'(

Drugs? nono.

2009-06-30T23:20:00.011+08:00

Saturday, 27th june.

Dearest liwen's birthday!

Met sheryl first at arnd 8 plus thn head to town to meet the rest.

As usual update each other on train and had the usual laughs. LOL.

Finally get to see all of them gathering tgt after months. :D

Jasmine, liwen and sheryl. :D

So enjoy the pictures!

Jas, liwen, sheryl and me. <3

sheryl :D

Reached bangkok thai at arnd 10+ 11 and relaxed over there.

And at 12 midnight, happy birthday liwen!!!

Candid, lol!

Hope you enjoyed and dreams come true, lol.

Bill sure damn ex one. LOL

Jasmine decorated this cake, pretty obvious? lol.

Sheryl cut it, LOL

This one damn bloody awful ok, i drank one. :'(

Jasmine and sheryl :D

Liwen & sheryl

James & sheryl

They look damn compatible right! Too bad they're not a couple, LOL.

They call this guy 13, cos his name is shi shan i think? LOL.

Edison chen look alike. LOL

Stayed there till 5plus? Music and live band. Very enjoyable! Especially when im witht he three of them. Love all of you to the max!!

Liwen, hope you enjoyed and we love you. You know it!

Happy 19th birthday once again!!

*hugs*

Aftermath was breakfast at 925 with them. Thn home sweet home. Chatted arnd at the coffee shop was damn funny.... haha. Supposed to be dragging our bodies bk home but we still laughed real hard.

Aww, love everyone. <3>

I try very hard to adapt, how about you? Sigh.

Hallucinations?

2009-06-30T00:28:00.005+08:00

Thursday, 25 june.

Town with pam, jason, sherman.

Was fun! :)

Chit-chatted and laughed till stomach cramped (wow, quite serious uh) lol .

Ji hao xiao yi xia!

Before gg out, While walking arnd to look for clothes, i think it was real bad.

So a boo for me.

With them! <3>Pam
I think sherman's the only guy who would love taking pictures. LOL.

& Jason.

& jervis

Went over to far east, in the toilet met my colleague-used-to-be miaomiao.

uhuh, not prepared yet?
(:

We looked like this.

Paranoid fuck.

2009-06-29T23:37:00.003+08:00

Life's a bore. I wanna:

- find a job, a part time one. Cos i need $$

- meet up with all the girls i miss

- spend my hols well and not rot at home

- shopping, like fcuk? so damn impossible

- slim down until 30 kg LOL

- get my hair trimmed

- blog with all my pictures

- meet with sheryl, liwen, jasmine again.

- see calista and pam soon

- have another crazy outing with crazy ppl

I promise i wont be paranoid, it's fatal enough to kill us. :(

Insecure-ness

2009-06-29T14:27:00.002+08:00

Very late updates. :(

My usb cable cannot be connected to my com. And all my pictures are in it, so..

Sorry for the lack updates. Some pictures from dad's camera.

I promise as long as my phone's ok, i willl blog.

Pictures of outing with pam, sherman and jason. Liwen's birthday on saturday.

And manyy.

*Liwen! happy birthday ok. Hope you enjoyed yourself. Loveya!! *hugs*

Daddy.

Might be shifting to my dad's place.

Life's all about gamble.

2009-06-22T02:57:00.002+08:00

Hi all. I want pictures on my blog, waiting for my father to sedn me the pics we took today.
So today's fathers day and i went over to grandpa house for dinner with dad. Haven't seen him for quite some time..
Then headed to his house at hougang, thn met someone. :))))))
After that headed home at 10+. Feel god damn tired even though i was out for a few hours only.

And something damn scary happened when i was on train on the way bk home.
One guy, he look abit indian but not those blacks ones. Those fairer ones. He bloody do eye signals to me. I FEEL LIKE CRYING YOU KNOW!!
The feeling is like, im so god damn scared but there's nth i can do. I tried to look fierce and stare damn hard at him but he just couldn't stop doing eye signals. He kept playing with his eyebrows man, like up down up down. LOL!! Aiya, i dont know how to explain the action. His eyes looked damn... freaky. (OMG)
And whats worse was, my phone went totally flat no batt. I was alone bk home you know!
Like god damn it. whats wrong with thtt guy.
I swear my heartbeat increase by10 every minute -.-
I hope i dont meet such weirdos anymore pls.

*Im gonna give it one last try, we'll be fine. Right? :/

Sincerity.

2009-06-19T01:12:00.001+08:00

It feels like i was stabbed, thn i try to self medicate and think that it'll be ok.

Be someone different please.

I pray hard that he's not like any other guys.

2009-06-18T15:17:00.000+08:00

So god damn sweet, i melted.

Suffocating, im not feeling ok when i say im fine.

2009-06-17T18:30:00.002+08:00

Tuesday, 16 june met ws after his work for a movie. "Drag me to hell" I wanted to watch tht before the movie's out!! It didnt disappoint me tho, very niceeeeee. Managed to scare the shit out of me. LOL!

Then after that headed homeee. A lil lame to go out just for a movie, but i like. LOL.

No pictures, i think my blog's gettting more and more boring. Or maybe it wasnt interesting at all?! haha whatever.

Sometimes i wonder how long more im gonna put up a brave front.
Im not this kind of girl im notttttt.
I've so many things on my mind now, so much tht i can't even breathe sometimes.
But who's gonna let me rant here and there.
I hate the way i am now, i hate the things i have, i hate the people i met who've left me alone when they promised they'll always be there.
I hate the life im leading. I hate mandy.

Togetherness

2009-06-15T16:00:00.004+08:00

Forgot to update about friday's outing with sheryl. Like, finally meet. LOL!
We headed to town to walk arnd. That day was damn funny. Cos we walked arnd and....... *it's between me and sheryl*
HAHAHA. We held hands like lesbian lor! But i like, *winks*
Lol!!!
That day we damn high one, living in our own world. Next time we must go cine again, our favourite place to walk. hahaha!
Then after that saw zhiwei and his friends. Went to pub tgt till 3+ then head to zhiwei's blk.
Talked about some stuffs and went home at 5+. Dead beat, especially when im with my bloody heels. LOL.

She didn't take her cam out, wasted. LOL.

I can't take it anymore.

2009-06-14T10:48:00.002+08:00

What a happy family i have. In other ppl's family. In every sunday morning, they would have breakfast tgt, chit chat tgt. What about my happy family? The robot in my house coulkd sleep till afternoon. Not bothering whether my sister got her lunch or breakfast or not.
Im so glad i got a mother who wholeheartedly love us care for us. Despite her long working hours, no matter how tired she is. She would buy breakfast for me and sister.
All this little actions really made me feel that i have to help her more. Maybe to many of you, this is what a mother should do. But for my mother it's different. I sympathise her so damn much. But i could do nothing......

And now, how about you my fucking elder brother?

Wow you so love your gf. And pls take this in mind. Im totally not against her. But against how intolerable your love towards her. Mother fucker, you dote on her so bloody much until me and mum finds it disgusting. I repeat, im not against her. When she said thank you to me just now, i was so furious initially and blaming her in my heart for making ridiculous request. But after hearing tht, i felt damn.. I know it wasn't her fault. I feel like a baddie, she's so innocent. I dont want her to feel that noone in this house welcomes her. Im angry at you not your gf mind you.
Why everytime we quarrel you can say sever ties so easily. I dont understand. Is it that this family no longer holds a place in you or is it that im just way too minor to you.
You always tell me how much you love me how much you blah blah blah me. No way, it's enough. I dont wanna hear all these anymore.
You and your fucking lies.

I had enough of a fanily like this. I hate this. WHAT A HAPPY FAMILY.

Sometimes im just so tired of all these, i wanna leave. I hate all these that im going through. Hate it so much............
How many times am i gonna cry over family issues, how many times will i feel likegiving up. I dont know.
Just shut up. I dont need someone like you.

Crazy woman.

2009-06-12T13:20:00.008+08:00

Hi all! Finally there'll be pictures appearing. :D
So ytd me and pam went out last min, arnd 6 thn we met.

Then off to comerset to meet the guys and down to city hall for dinner. Lazed arnd at star bucks thn head home at 9++ (damn early) cos my baby pamela needa go home early. So everyone went home too.
Short and sweet day. :D

On train

uglyyyyyyyyy.

& fat

At star bucks/

She said she looked ugly so she censored her face -.-

Didn't take pictures witht he guys, next time hopefully.

:)

Presenting to you, my 2nd husband!!!!!!!
.

ZHAO YOU TINGGGG.

He look damn korean i swear!

woo, gentleman me like~

Bad boy me like!!

&&&&&&

I see this pic i nearly suffocate. Damn angry.
.

One of the scenes in his latest movie.

I want to crop that girl's face out thn fit mine in alr. HAHAHA.

WA DAMN HANDSOME RIGHT! My goodness. And i think he look like my eyecandy lor! Damn korean. Of cos not forgetting my 1st husband, xiang xiang. LOL!

When the lights went off, you could dance like mad.

2009-06-08T17:57:00.002+08:00

woo!
Went to st. james ytd w/o buying tickets, haha.
:D
Music was damn to my liking. And ppl there were so fun!
Go again go again.
But the crowd was too much!! 12++ gg to 1 there's stil a long queue outside waiting.
Ppl on the dance floor packed like sardine! haha!

No pictures as i don't hv a digi cam with me. :'(

And recently so many things were spoilt. My phone is the worst!

Ok, but im a happy girl for now. (:
No more coursework! yayyyyy.

See you soon night life. :D

sour smile.

2009-06-04T17:56:00.006+08:00

Sorry for the lack updates, been busy all these while.

Like, exams, revision non-stop.

Haven't been going out recently, until today.

& OMG GSS is here alr!! But at this point of time i got no cash to shop alr, how unlucky. Last yr's GSS i also broke, now this yr also the same. tsk.

Pamela, week three GSS ahhh. hahaha.

Love pamela, calista, sheryl, jasmine, liwen, huimin, many many.

Do you ppl love me too? :x

Bad mood, so no smile. LOL.

Fly hugs and kisses from you to me. I feel it everytime i see you, haha.

Glass in between us, is everytime how i see you.

:'(

loveeeeeeeeeeeeee.

back.

2009-05-30T13:17:00.003+08:00

i've not been blogging sometime, due to some reasons.
I'll blog again real soon ok. Life's pretty good these few days.
(:

Don't wanna study anymore, i want to work. haha!

& oh ya. So many people's discussing about the victory of kris allen and adam lambert.
I support adam tho..
He got sexy eyes right?!!? haha!

Bye, update again.

Keep a distance between, to make me not get used to you.

Family portrait.

2009-05-17T01:34:00.002+08:00

Went out with terry to vivo, to the cathay, followed by plaza sing, and lastly to cine and wisma.

Walked throughout and my legs couldn't take it. haha.

No pictures, not in the mood+my lousy camera. haha, pleasant day tho.

When this house is tearing apart,
where can be my shelter?

When i know bad things are gonna fall upon us, what can i do?

I feel very insecure at all times now, in this family. When initially it shouldn't be so...
The "used-to-be" family portrait, is not what it is now. Different pppl came in, important person left..

And....... It's making me feel so insecure seriously. Thats not what i wanted it to be.
Can i call this home a "home" again? Or should i call it, a "house of danger" ..
I don't wanna live in this kinda circumstances, neither do i want little sister and mummy to live in this kinda horrible environment. It's making us feel so upside down...

Peace, joy, harmony, where have you guys gone to?
:(

Time flies.

2009-05-15T22:46:00.002+08:00

Nothing much to update..

weekends are approaching again. Anyone want to ask me out? haha,

finally this weekend can go out without any worries and plans to mug. :/

Talked to jasmine online. And realise the last time i saw her was, valentine's day? lol!

So randomly find picture of the deeply missed, liwen, sheryl and jasmine and mine pictures.

It's like so long ago alr! lol.

Sheryl also reborn hair liao, liwen also change hair style liao. Jasmine have become slimmer and she claims that she is damn black now! LOL.

It's been so long since we last meet uh, love.

Don't ever come back to me, just leave me alone.

2009-05-14T22:28:00.001+08:00

Take a deep breathe..
Everything's gonna be alright, right? :/

Someday, maybe we will be tgt again?

2009-05-11T11:45:00.003+08:00

Nice? lol.

My com's new background.

I can only see you in june.

& I haven't received the third letter, have you forgotten about me?

haha, nvm. :D

because im the only one?

2009-05-10T14:19:00.004+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY <3

I love my mother many many.

The rose and the card on top is mine, and the cards are from my sis.

sis and me. ps: i never make up loh.
is like 1 yr 1 time i will take picture without make up. HAHA.
Meimei. Her name's sheryl also!!
Pout like me. HAHAHA.

I know the difference with and without make up is alot, don't be shocked. haha.

meimei, don't everytime make jiejie angry. I will love you even more. :(

Mummy, i love you ah. I don't know how to say, but i really love you alot.. Although we always quarrel but. Maybe thats our communication way, although sometimes in those quarrels what you said are hurtful, but i know it's not what you wanted. I've not been a good girl a very helpful daughter in your life.. But i promise when i get older, i start working. You'l definitely lead a better life. No matter what, even if our family tears apart. I will stick with you. Because i understand that, you are the only one in this family who will tolerate me and pamper me indirectly with your motherly love.

SORRY, AND LASTLY.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY. WO AI NIIIII. :D

why?

2009-05-09T23:52:00.009+08:00

SAW HUIMIN'S

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION

Main character :D

Huimin ahsiao.

This one not clear.&Amanda, she very pretty right! :)

I met angeline to go tgt for huimin's party. And had some fun talking to each other.. Hor? kai xin jiu hao lor. LOL!

"Busted"

K la, i shall not expose the secret that she fell down when she saw me(too excited).

LOL!!

* She sure say, "wa ni.. busted" LOL. *

Pictures with her :D

Huimin,Mandy,Angeline

Humin i love you ok.

& Stephrene! Long time no see. HAHA.

Continue..

Short and fat V.S Skinny and tall.

& Lastly......

THE EXCLUSIVE ONE..........

HAHAHAHAHA.

Bye bye.

loveloveloveeeee.

I don't understand why can't our family be like other children's family.. Pecae, joy, harmony and the love.Is it really just so hard to obtain these in a family?

I miss those times when we would talk so much to each other.

But i guess they wouldn't come bk again.

It's like, in this house, everyone's living tgt but leading each's different life.

To everyone who reads my blog:

I hope all of us can chersih what we hv in our family now.. No matter good or bad.

If it's bad, don't just leave it like it is. Try to mend it bk.. The feeling of broken family ties between ain't good. Don't nag how irritating your parents are.. Because until someday if your parents ignore you for good and you no longer feel the nagging arnd you you'll regret.

If siblings quarrel with you call it a blessing.

Don't regret till then, cos it'll be too late. Seriously, only family matters the most.

I am tired of all these.. Maybe i will just keep quiet, do my own things well. This is gonna continue for a long long time...................

"I think i like you"

2009-05-07T20:39:00.022+08:00

Hi hi. Tired and long days recently,due to exams.

But anww, past few days had fun mugging with my babies tho.. And picture a total of 88 uploaded. haha, enjoyyyy.

4th may, Monday

Subway with calista, more of fun than study. lol.

Potential lesbian mandy.

Evidence of mugging.

Evidence that i studied real hard to the extent that i feel like sleeping, haha.

Subway cookie.

Calistak :D

One of my fav :D

Stayed over at calista's house that day, and it was just another fun night.

Don't be frightened, i know like ghost. hahaha!

Act pathetic lol.

This friend, quite precious. lol.

:D :D :D

Day 2: 5th may, tuesday.

"P" for pamela kwong lil baby.

"C" for calista kang baby.

Ahha, my lil babies.

I haven't prepare ok!! lol.

Pamela says yo.

Myprecious,

Pretty pamela :D

3 best.

Loveloveloveeee.

OMG. ALOT PICTURES RIGHT. LOL!!!

bye bye!! Tag tag tagggg.

xie xie da jia~

Attached to..

2009-05-05T11:02:00.011+08:00

Pictures from webcam:

with calista & adeline

HAPPY NIGHT!! (:

And i got more photos to be uploaded from my phone. HAHA.

Tonight ok........... bye. PPL TAG ME. HAHAHA.

why are you not like other guys?

2009-05-05T10:43:00.002+08:00

Hi all!! (:
Im at calista's house right nowwww. Oh i mean since last night, i was here. Over night at her house.
HAHA. I slept with her, lol! Like so funny.
Last time when we were in sec3 we wasn't on such good terms too, until noww, we beame best friends.. Of cos, pamela you also. :D

Thinking the times haha. We said to each other in the morning, we didn't tot that we would be so close someday. hahaa.
Thats life and fate i suppose.. :D
So ytd studied, and i couldn't get anything onto my brain. Thats the sad thing.. Another sad thing is that i took many picture near 100, in my phone.. And i think i'll have a hard time uploading. haha, of cos not all if not i'll go bonkers alright. HAHA.

Ok, im missing home i miss mummy and sister onlyyy.

SHERYL I HOPE YOU SEE THIS: LETS MEET UP TGT WITH LIWEN AND JASMINE. I so long never see them alrr. haha!!
Really loh, the keychain still with me lea. LOL!!

Im gonna mug again ltr.. At SSC anyone can comne and find me. HAHA.
mug mug muggggggg.

I know what you said, were just... nothing. haha.
I MISS LIWEN, JASMINE AND SHERYLLLLLLLLLLL.
And j*** ***k . HAHAHAHA!!

what am i doing.

2009-05-02T02:12:00.004+08:00

Today met many friends which i've not met for longgg longgggg time!
:D
First, meet kimkai for movie. And saw angeline too! Took train tgt.
So damn long didn't see her. I thinki last saw her was.. 2 yrs bk when we were wearing uniform in school! LOL. really long man.
Aww, must meet soon ok angeline! everytime say want meet also dont know meet until where. HAHA.

Pics:

Ps: mandy's too ugly so must censor.

Kimkai!

Headed bk to yishun to meet zhiwei for the present he bought for me in taiwan.

Thanks la, saw it. Sincere enough and its really a cute present.

Caught up with fion at HK cafe.
Mango ice something. LOL.

Fion!

Must study liao, time is running out like nobody's business. :(

bb everyone, pls tag me.

So much into fate.

2009-04-29T01:03:00.014+08:00

28th april, tuesday.

Went to SSC with pamela and it was a crazy one.

haha.

Let the pictures talk,

Went daiso to shop.

I didnt realise i looked so down when i was shopping. LOL

So into baskets, lmao.

Pamela like this mouse or rat or whatever you call it.

I really think the panties for kids are damn cute. Too bad i cant fit into them. HAHA

Dined at new york new york, :D

O-M-G like ghost. LOL

Baby, you smelling the candy floss or tasting it? LOL.

This staff, named uncle sam he's damn funny. He looks like an indian. In fact he's a indian chinese COOL right! He speaks fluent chinese for goodness sake. He gave us candy floss -.- Damn funny.

"Baby" Like my little sister. <3

Dining at new york is really a good choice. The ambience the staffs and the lightings are damn perfect.

The last picture of the day.

Like couple loh! LOL!

Love

Everyone

Who

Loves

Me.

LOL.

BYE!!!

Patience.

2009-04-25T22:44:00.002+08:00

WA
Finally!! Ok, just now actually i screwed my whole blog up. I very dumb, i went to change my blogskin for "fun" and it wasnt fun !! LOL

But.. after tht i dont know what i click again and i found my old template. And there i go spending one whole day for all these updates.
:(

Now my eyes are so tired.
I learnt my lesson. Never play when you are not sure of the consequences. LOL!

Bb! :D

attached...............

2009-04-19T18:14:00.000+08:00

TMD!
Mandy
damn
sad
cos
SHE
DIDNT
GET
MARRIED
WITH
LUO
ZHI
XIANG!!!!!!!

I see so many ppl got married with him, the "wedding pictures" !
I WANT TO DIEEEEEEEE.

EMO
ZZZZZZZZZ.

:(

Quality time spent.

2009-04-19T00:59:00.000+08:00

Saturday, wanted to go out with sheryl but no feel to go out.. So went over to her house i got the feel to cook. Then went to ntuc to buy groceries. HAHA. We like aunty like that lor!! Especially sheryl! Big shirt, 3/4 pants, tie bun bring umbrella........

LOL!!!! I from far see her also want to laugh lor! LOL.

too bad didn't snap a picture of it. HAHA.

Ok. Pictures talk.

Just some candid shots.

Buy-ING.

You see her hair you can imagine how aunty alrd. LOL!!

Prepare-ING.

This one damn disgusting!! Cos dont know how to open the wrap, thn edn up like that. WALAO. Not appetisizing at all!!! LOL.

This is what i call potential housewive, LOL!

This one is "already housewive ( got the huang lian po feel)" LOL!!!

Wash rice.

Cook-ING

Sheryl's baked bean with eggs. LOL.

Mandy's cooking

End up we cook alot lor!! 2 person eat lea!! Eat until damn pekchek. LOL

Tadah! Cheft choo

NO MAKE UP REALLY CAN DIE!!!!

Dont tag me why i no make up so different i wil fan lian. LOL!!!

Alright, so spent time away until 11++ 12 like tht.. Went home. We live block aparts only.

We meet at 5 talk non stop until gg 12!! Power.

As long as we meet like never ending talks like that!! Talk about so many damn funny.

LOL!!

I love sheryl , she gg m'sia tmr i think.

with poly guys (my favvvvvv) HAHAHAHA.

Thats all!

what else can i say?

2009-04-18T00:48:00.000+08:00

Ok. Adeline just send me the pictures. (:

She's one sweet girl too. haha.

Taken by her webcam:

This is the first time someone drew me. Somemore using the computer sketching. Omg, its like. Awwwwwwwwww. sweet? haha.

Thanks thanks thanks.
"I cried when i saw the picture"

HAHAHA.

Melvin got what i mean?!?! HAHAHAHA.
He very nice, everytime like to draw me i dont know why.

LOL!!
thanksssssss.

Fate/.

2009-04-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

ok, random. But this post is specially for calista.

Your birthday cake.. :(

Bought one slice only cos tot you would have too much cake alrd, and rmb you dont love cake tht much..

And this cake, if i went to school tht day. It would only be for you and nt shared.. Ya.

Understand?

k, thats all.

Good times, bad times.

2009-04-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

Updates.

Alright.. Photos taken ytd at calista's house. Her sisters damn pretty. Both are potential comedy stars. LOL!! It wasnt much of a celebration, more of a gathering within we girls. (:

My dear, hope you did enjoy yourself.

The card i made for her.

My precious kiss, we really kissed lor! LOL

Look so fat when it shouldn't be like this. LOL

Tgt-ness :D

This is her youngest sister!! Damn cute and tall. She's like at my forehead? LOL! P5 only ok. How come kids grow so fast nowadays. -.-

Eunice we are good friends. LOL

Pretty right she!

Pamela kwong the kp.

This one is really funny, we were suppose to hug.. But i don't understand why she end up doing pole dancing actions to me, and hug me like some koala bear. HAHA.

Best, classmates. 09'

This was quite sometime ago, was lazy to upload. So these came late. Pamela webcam-ed me again as usual.

But this time round with her super cute brother and cousin, thats why i post the screenshots. LOL

HAHA.

So cute loh!

The siblings.

WOO. This is damn cute and the best picture.

Pamela, signing off.

Alright.. Thats all. Me no mood to blog actually.. Don't know whats gotten into me. Bloody hell fuck. Ppl, tag.

I miss sheryl, jasmine liwen and everyone i haven't met for long.

Chiuwee, miaomiao.. Blah blahblah..

Can i turn time bk?

This will be the last time im gonna blog this way.

2009-04-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

I saw her blog, I saw how ppl mentioned you and her were compatible. And i dont know why i feel so. Arghh.

Whats the impact that she has left for you, sometimes i wonder..
Didn't i try hard to keep you with me? sigh.

I still dream of you, i still think.. why?
somebody tell me why..

Perhaps she was so much better than me, perhaps you both went through things tht i haven't got the chance to go through with you, our time is short.
Its like, not fair huh.
If all it takes is months of awaiting i wouldn't mind doing stupid things like, "waiting" ..
But it doesn't help.. How much i struggle inside. How much i want you bk, its not gonna happen.
So what should i do when you left me saying, you want her forgiveness and patch with her because you've hurt her too much? How about me, didn't you hurt me too? Beacuase you want to heal her wound but you left a scar on me.
How great. I miss you like free one, I still think of those lil memories though they're so limited. How can i have you bk again.. You know? Its so hard to stop thinking.
I hope you read my blog. Because whatever i blog about, i dare not say it to you.

Im not ognna say anymore. I dont wanna be so emo all my life. I dont wanna be like this anymore.. Many said that i've become another person ever since i broke up with you. Interms of studies, daily life.
I bet you don't understand how much i feel for you...........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALISTA!! <3

2009-04-16T21:27:00.000+08:00

I haven't blog for few days. Cos noone tag i angry.
LOLLLLL.

Please ppl, tag me. ROAR.

Alright, the main purpose for this post is..
My dear best friend birthday is today!!

happy birthday calista. (:
Hugs and kisses tight tight.

will post the pictures up ltr or tmr when she send me. (:

It lasted not long but i can't forget about it.

2009-04-10T13:22:00.000+08:00

Something bad happened.
):

& Im gonna be so ... whole day.
I dreamt of him.

Sometimes i wonder how long will it take for me to not be affected, still, and when can i clean forget the hurt you've brought to me.
It's not the first time i dreamt of you.. & Its so damn terrible to feel this way.

Is it because its not gonna be possible between us in reality, thats why its all happening in dreams?

I dreamt of me meeting him out of coincidence, then when we saw each other, i held on to his hands very tightly, don't wanna let him go.. But he said to me, " don't think of the past alrd. " and then another dream followed.
I dreamt that we talked on the phone (this is not gonna happen in reality) , you told me you want to go to somewhere, and asked me , "you wanna accompany me along? " . Then i woke up from this dream..

All i can say is..
I really hate the feeling like this. Waking up from a dream that pains me to realise, oh its just a dream.I felt like crying.. But, there's too many but.
Its like bk to the days when we just broke up. I cried every morning i wake up.
I hope you hear my cries and come bk to me, (baby) i miss calling you that.

Boring day, funny day.

2009-04-10T01:14:00.000+08:00

Alright, im doing nothing at home.. Damn bored yea, but i've spent all my money so im not gg to go out until i have money again.
Fuck.
Damn sad cos no body called me to hire me!!

Oh man, please tag me if any of you know which shop is hiring!
So i stayed home and talked online alomost the whole day.
Got some funny things to share!! LOL!
Melvin is damn irritating. lol!

I just started talking to him past few days even though we knew each other for quite some time. And to my horror, he really is god damn irritating.
LOL!

Evidence:

COPYING MY DP!!

I roar thn he draw one lion i don't know why. -.- lol

He can happily take my pics from blog and draw.

Draw until so ugly! Not me lor!! LOLLLL.

I thought tht was damn funny, and IRRITATING. Draw until so ugly still expect me to compliment your drawing, tmd.

LOL!!

*mandish* LOL!

Alright im bored againnnnnnnnn.

how to stop this feeling from coming bk.

2009-04-07T19:51:00.000+08:00

ok im very emo just now and so i talked damn negatively.
Pamela is sweet enough. hahaha.

Thanks a million.

she gave me these online and i tot it was damn cute. haha.
Seriously i think i should ask myself what do i want now.

will you come bk to me?

2009-04-07T17:35:00.001+08:00

I've never felt this way before.
Im a loser. I want to patch with you. Oh man what am i thinking.

2 months have passed.
&I still think of you. whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I have to stop thinking. ):

It didn't turn out to be so..

2009-04-06T22:21:00.000+08:00

Went to bugis with alicia. But didn't take any pictures with her, wasn't in the mood, she said that.
K.
So went walking arnd and trying my luck to see if i could find some jobs. Some needs part time and i left my contact, i was so damn afraid they would not call me. I need a job badlyyyyyyy. So badly, unless i get my self a rich old man. HAHAHA.
Kiddingggggggggggggg.
Quick call me, companies.
Met my lovely colleagues at bugis outlet, awwwww. I miss them like free one. hahaha, pictures. Even though we only chatted for a lil while. But it was forever fun with them.

Pictures.

(:

Lovelies,

Mingming!! loveeeeeeeee.

Xueyi! loveeeeeeeeee.

Shiyun. loveeeeeee.

Super candid!! But i like.

.
Turns out to be this. (:

Ok, gotta to my things alrd. bb.

I love my colleagues.

Friends.

2009-04-05T13:59:00.000+08:00

Ok its pouring over here like nobody's business. Bored at home.
Online and pamela webcam-ed me. hehe.
She cute, cos she's my twin! HAHAHA.
Really got ppl say we look alike. I don't know why. But she's pretty my honour. ( HOR PAMELA?!?!) HAHAHA.

Screenshots!

Webcam with me she very happy. LOL.

Shock?

Saying hi to readers, (:

Frowning.

So she ended with these pose, love.

ok thts all!
BYE! (:

Irresistably HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!

2009-04-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

ok! i very agitated now!!!!
COS IM TALKING TO SHERYL ONLINE NOW AND WE ARE CRAZY OVER.. ... ... ...
" VIVIAN DAWSON!"
This guy! Damn hot!

Oh myyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Hottie hot.

He's up in cleo magazine for the top 50 bachelor! IM STILLL SINGLE MEANS I GOT CHANCE. HAHAHAHAAHA.

Dont stripe! I fainting alrd!!! LOLLLLLLL.

WALAO. Sit down also so diannnnnnnn!!!! My tian.

So me & sheryl went gagagagagagaggaga over many hot guys online. And we talked and became more & more agaitated tht we talked in CAPS. Hahahhaha!!!!

Ohmyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

Fainting!

I want to meet sheryl soon probably this sunday. To..

TALK ABOUT HOT GUYS! HAHAHAHHA.

Lameeeeeeee.

I didn't like it this way.

2009-04-02T21:27:00.000+08:00

Thinking deep down, what i want for my life now.
In fact, i couldn't do anything. Its not the first time i felt this way. Not the first time i felt so helpless. But everytime when im like this, i couldn't find any shoulder to lean on. I couldn't find anyone to talk to. Thts the worse tht could happen.
If only i have a bf like almost every girl does, i could have cried to him. I could have told myself, its ok i still have my bf with me. And add on a smiley to every stattement i made. But tht doesn't happen to me unfortunately.
Well, its not like i must have a bf. I don't need tht either.
Rather, i'd prefer having so many friends arnd me. Giving me those kinda support tht you'll definitely ask for when you're emotionally, spiritually and physically down and upset.
Gawd, im damn upset right now and who on earth was here. Maybe because i got used to keeping things to myself. And i didn't like to speak when im upset. Cos thta when my attitude comes and screw everything up.

I quarreled with mummy, again.

To me, my mother is god damn precious. I love her tht much but she don't seem to know. I have to say, i cry almost everytime i quarrel with her. Im not afraid of ppl saying im so cry baby. But pls, im just too emotional. I don't want to quarrel anymore.. Its tiring. Really it is. Mummy had moved out. She's not staying with me anymore. Thts exactly why i have to cherish my mother more.. But, quarrels still happen more than those times we could talk nicely to each other. Sometimes i ask, why do i have such background. Why do i live in such a environment. Why does so many other ppl smile so happily with their parents? Why ain't my daddy and mummy like other kid's daddy and mummy? ):
I still have doubts of a young girl. Although i know the reasons behind all these, but i can't help asking.

Sigh.
I want to put a full stop to all these.
I cried but it didn't help. I tried damn hard to talk to my mother nicely. I tried everything i could.

Frankly speaking, im a emotional weakling. I cannot handle my emotions well. I cannot handle affairs of my own heart well, not to mention relationship.
Im still dwelling in the past. It didn't happen long ago, just 2 months ago.
Those times tht we had tgt.
I cherished, i treasured but i lost him. He wont come bk anymore, just because of the reason tht he threw at me. he still love his ex gf. It might be an excuse, just to breakup with me. Oh well, im also god damn tired to think and revive those memories alrd. Im thinking everyday, everytime i pass by places tht reminds me of you its like thinking bk on something tht will never ever come bk to me again.
I begged all i can. I tried all i can to have you bk with me. I don't understand what is wrong and why is this happenening.
I tot i could let it go after some time. But, it's been quite some time alrd. We didn't get tgt for a long time anww. And definitely i took much more time to tell myself stop thinking than the lifespan of our relationship. People might have though im over you, but no im not. I still think, but i don't say tht much anymore. Say for what, noone understands. Im not out to gain anybody's sympathy anyway, i don't see a point in saying alll these.

Sometimes i think tht i should just put an edn to this and tell myself i die die have to stop reminding myself alrd. But everytime i think, i see your face in my mind, i can't help but start again, thinking of you. You're truly an ass, to make me feel so pain even though we're tgt for only one pathetic week. Im sucha fool sucha stupid girl. Everything came so suddenly, and it ended so suddenly too. Wow, power la you.
Im trying so hard. But it always comes to me like nobody's business.
Sigh. what am i suppose to do.
I miss you but i shouldn't. Cos you wont turn bk alrd, and its for sure. Nothing can be done and although i don't wanna say it, but still,Its alrd the past.
):
):

And last./ I have to cope with my $$$$$ issue too.
I need a job to feed myself.
I need a job real soon.
I just got my pay today for last weekend's work.
&&&&&&
worst,
they cut my pay.
Its like wtf?!!?!?!?

They don't need me to work every weekend anymore. Cos business's real bad.
so...
I need to find a job. Probably going for job hunt during this week end to come.
Any job intro? ):
I really need money now. Gawd, its so damn headache.
I hate it when i have no money, i hate me when im like this.

I shall end my ranting with..

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I have a thousands of unhappiness to complain about. But anw im fated to be like this in this life. Nothing can be done.
I want to be a happy girl everyday w/o troubles too, don't i?

Good times flies fast.

2009-03-30T16:46:00.000+08:00

Was busy working during weekends. And no, i should say, was busy having fun. HAHA.
It was damn quiet as usual. Played like nobody's business even there's so many camera supervising us at work. hhahaha.
Here's the updates. :D

"chaos" colleague. Don't know how to spell her name. But i know her chinese name is "bei xin". LOL!!

Joanna!! She very pretty one.

She also very pretty! Complexion damn good too. & I love her tattoo!!

She's tall yea.

& Miao miao.

Eva.

Chiuwee!

Very lesbian actions!! LOL.

Neh you see again! Lol. Its either kiss or hug. hahaha!

Then.. Cos it was damn bored. Really is no customers, never skived uh! haha.

We did stupid things. And i swear i really laugh like mad. haha.

Firstly:

They took picture of me. Must have tht kind of pathetic emotion. LOL!

Thn they want to scissors me.

Thn grab me.

And they want to moke tht im very small sized. LOL!

.

This one is the funnier one.

They drew all these. And like, damn kindergarden scool kid standard! LOL!

*Chiuwee did a vodeo introducing all these stupid drawings. LOL.

Tmd! Ask you all work also never so hardworking loh. hahaha.

On friday, 27 march.

Lovelies.

Damn lesbian but i like. LOL!

Chiuwee&Mandy

Miao miao and mandy

Camwhore.

*** CLASSIC CLASSIC! LOL!

Chiuwee's video. I think its damn funny. hahaha.

I shall end with this video. And pls enjoy.

Love them like nobody's business. (:

Enjoy-ed.

Time's running out like nobody's business.

2009-03-24T18:13:00.000+08:00

Short and boring post it shall be.
Hmm school was fine. Had fun these two days with the same group of ppl. It'll be best if everything continues this way, except tht I can change my attitude towards my studies. Dont wanna neglect my books and assignments. Need to buck damn up cos time's seriously running out..

Courseworks, maths, everythingggggg.

Study hard mandy. (:

And work hard to earn money. Envious of those who are so damn rich like money never stops flowing in their pockets. But well, everyone's different. I have to work extra hard for those money and my future. hahha.

Money and education is important.

Drunkards :D

2009-03-22T20:55:00.001+08:00

Yay!
Went out with xiaobee, all i can say is. She really looks like ahlian and yea she is one. LOL!
Pictures proven!

& We watched "detroit metal city" it was a super super super nice one! Please go and watch it!

If you're a punk & rock lover you'll love tht show. Its about dreams and sometimes thing dont turn out to be what you want but tht doesnt mean tht they are not good. (:/

I damn love tht show! I think the movie industry should put up more of these movies. haha.

I LOVE ROCKKKKKK. The whole show was damn metalic alright! Rock the cinema upside down./ :DDDDDDDD

Its like funny yet aspiring. lol.

I rate it.. 5/5!!!

Then after tht went to meet colleagues at orchard for dinnner and kbox.

Boss's treats. yayness! Lol.

Well, i was rather moody and emotional. And i ordered few glasses of beer. hahaha. I think i gulped too much at one go.. And i wasn't drunk actually. Just feeling nauseous when i got home. hahah.

I like to be drunk actually. Even though i hate to be like this but i am like tht. LOL.

Might be gg to club with colleagues again next sat. And wooooo~

Dance dance dance and rock. (:

im a rocker within me. LOL!

Inevitable.

2009-03-20T14:19:00.000+08:00

19 march

Went out with pamela. (:
Wanted to go library to find some source for my research, but.. HAHA. Nothing was done but pictures stack up like mountains.

Carmen came to meet us abit later.
Pictures talking now, get ready. :D

With pamela/.

Super hungry ytd, dined at KFC. Lol.

& Carmen

She's trying to prove to we really went to Pastamania before. LOL! -.-

:D Pamela, the hyperactive.

& Mandy

She snapped me of me snapping pictures. LOL.

Passed by kiddy palace and never get sick of these:

Who still dare to say i aunty! Im a young little girl in heart. hah!

Buy me all of these i'll love you to the maxxxxx. haha.

Thats all for ytd.

Oh, and i came home with my red eyes again. ): The contact lens seems to be really bad for my eyes.

Resting today at home not gg out. Bored boreed boreddddddddd.

Every morning i open my eyes, The feeling truely sucks to realise that i couldn't have you with me anymore.

2009-03-19T11:06:00.000+08:00

Have to deal with my emo shit again. Every morning the same thing comes about. My god, Im so sick of it. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

Everytime i go through those msgs from you. From the start when i started knowing you to those times when we're attracted to each other, until we slowly getting closer each day. & When we finally got tgt.
I could remember how happy i am tht time. I would always be so damn excited towards each new day of meeting you. & I always love throwing temper to you making you think tht im attituding you I dont know why either.
Thn as i scroll up in my inbox msgs.. I saw something so different followed up.

Its true to say tht when one is determine to break up he/she would be so damn cruel.
No matter how much how hard i beg you to come bk to me its useless.

It's been a month and 16 days.

" Why dont you tell me where it hurts my baby, and i'll do my best to make it better. "

I'll get over it but i need time, so much of my god damn time.

Yay, meeting pamela later. :D

Close like its my baby before.

2009-03-18T14:15:00.000+08:00

我一直以來都守護在你身邊不知你如何看得見只好靜靜靠在一邊

你的笑容能讓我開心一整夜好像擁有你在我生邊讓灰暗世界變成晴天

時間已經不多我還有話很想說一留埋藏心中卻要如何開口

該不該繼續沉默該不該勇敢至說希望你回頭

不能在一起也沒關系至少你懂我的心會在想你

那些回憶會永遠保持甜蜜不管未來你會在哪里

我都不會忘記我愛你

你是我微笑的原因

(只是希望你能比從前開心)

Xi Wang - Sly & Puzzle Band