Randomness

Sometimes life is just unfair, you yearn for someone so much but they just dont pause to take a look at you. Some ppl will do all you can to prove that you really love someone, but yet you got nothing in return at the end of the day. Especially girls, when there's nothing else you can do.. You can only cry alone or find some friends to talk to ( but most of them do not really understand though.......) . Sometimes if you just bottle them up, it'll worsen your emotions and breakdown eventually. And sometimes many of us feel so jealous of ppl who seems to be very good in everything, able to get what they want and so on..... When you see a guy telling a girl sweet little stuffs like, "if you are fat dont worry i'll jog with you" or "even during the worse times i'll be with you for sure, fret not." you often smack yourself saying, "Fuck why isn't this guy mine?!"
Well................
I think its kinda fated, not? :<

Jealousy really is something which is so fatal to my emotions. That explains why im a emotional kid. Sometimes no matter how hard you work towards a goal, or even for someone. You just dont get what you want. Despite putting your whole heart in, you wont be able to reach them. How sad........ Only you yourself can see how much effort you've put in, no others can. Some ppl are just so realistic and straightforward, that they wont make decisions using human's feeling.. whyyyyyyyy

Why cant some ppl just open their eyes big and see who are the ones that have always put in effort.....

Wow this is quite a emotional post huh huh huh......
Shall end here ^^