Drugs? nono.

Saturday, 27th june.

Dearest liwen's birthday!

Met sheryl first at arnd 8 plus thn head to town to meet the rest.

As usual update each other on train and had the usual laughs. LOL.

Finally get to see all of them gathering tgt after months. :D

Jasmine, liwen and sheryl. :D

So enjoy the pictures!

Jas, liwen, sheryl and me. <3

sheryl :D

Reached bangkok thai at arnd 10+ 11 and relaxed over there.

And at 12 midnight, happy birthday liwen!!!

Candid, lol!

Hope you enjoyed and dreams come true, lol.

(:

Bill sure damn ex one. LOL

Jasmine decorated this cake, pretty obvious? lol.

Sheryl cut it, LOL

This one damn bloody awful ok, i drank one. :'(

Jasmine and sheryl :D

Liwen & sheryl

James & sheryl

They look damn compatible right! Too bad they're not a couple, LOL.

They call this guy 13, cos his name is shi shan i think? LOL.

Edison chen look alike. LOL

Stayed there till 5plus? Music and live band. Very enjoyable! Especially when im witht he three of them. Love all of you to the max!!

Liwen, hope you enjoyed and we love you. You know it!

Happy 19th birthday once again!!

*hugs*

Aftermath was breakfast at 925 with them. Thn home sweet home. Chatted arnd at the coffee shop was damn funny.... haha. Supposed to be dragging our bodies bk home but we still laughed real hard.

Aww, love everyone. <3>

I try very hard to adapt, how about you? Sigh.

Hallucinations?

Thursday, 25 june.

Town with pam, jason, sherman.

Was fun! :)

Chit-chatted and laughed till stomach cramped (wow, quite serious uh) lol .

Ji hao xiao yi xia!

Before gg out, While walking arnd to look for clothes, i think it was real bad.

So a boo for me.

With them! <3>Pam
I think sherman's the only guy who would love taking pictures. LOL.

& Jason.

& jervis

Went over to far east, in the toilet met my colleague-used-to-be miaomiao.

uhuh, not prepared yet?
(:

We looked like this.

Paranoid fuck.

Life's a bore. I wanna:

- find a job, a part time one. Cos i need $$

- meet up with all the girls i miss

- spend my hols well and not rot at home

- shopping, like fcuk? so damn impossible

- slim down until 30 kg LOL

- get my hair trimmed

- blog with all my pictures

- meet with sheryl, liwen, jasmine again.

- see calista and pam soon

- have another crazy outing with crazy ppl

I promise i wont be paranoid, it's fatal enough to kill us. :(

Insecure-ness

Very late updates. :(

My usb cable cannot be connected to my com. And all my pictures are in it, so..

Sorry for the lack updates. Some pictures from dad's camera.

I promise as long as my phone's ok, i willl blog.

Pictures of outing with pam, sherman and jason. Liwen's birthday on saturday.

And manyy.

*Liwen! happy birthday ok. Hope you enjoyed yourself. Loveya!! *hugs*

Daddy.

Might be shifting to my dad's place.

Life's all about gamble.

Hi all. I want pictures on my blog, waiting for my father to sedn me the pics we took today.
So today's fathers day and i went over to grandpa house for dinner with dad. Haven't seen him for quite some time..
Then headed to his house at hougang, thn met someone. :))))))
After that headed home at 10+. Feel god damn tired even though i was out for a few hours only.

And something damn scary happened when i was on train on the way bk home.
One guy, he look abit indian but not those blacks ones. Those fairer ones. He bloody do eye signals to me. I FEEL LIKE CRYING YOU KNOW!!
The feeling is like, im so god damn scared but there's nth i can do. I tried to look fierce and stare damn hard at him but he just couldn't stop doing eye signals. He kept playing with his eyebrows man, like up down up down. LOL!! Aiya, i dont know how to explain the action. His eyes looked damn... freaky. (OMG)
And whats worse was, my phone went totally flat no batt. I was alone bk home you know!
Like god damn it. whats wrong with thtt guy.
I swear my heartbeat increase by10 every minute -.-
I hope i dont meet such weirdos anymore pls.

*Im gonna give it one last try, we'll be fine. Right? :/

Sincerity.

It feels like i was stabbed, thn i try to self medicate and think that it'll be ok.

Be someone different please.

I pray hard that he's not like any other guys.

So god damn sweet, i melted.

Suffocating, im not feeling ok when i say im fine.

Tuesday, 16 june met ws after his work for a movie. "Drag me to hell" I wanted to watch tht before the movie's out!! It didnt disappoint me tho, very niceeeeee. Managed to scare the shit out of me. LOL!

Then after that headed homeee. A lil lame to go out just for a movie, but i like. LOL.

No pictures, i think my blog's gettting more and more boring. Or maybe it wasnt interesting at all?! haha whatever.

Sometimes i wonder how long more im gonna put up a brave front.
Im not this kind of girl im notttttt.
I've so many things on my mind now, so much tht i can't even breathe sometimes.
But who's gonna let me rant here and there.
I hate the way i am now, i hate the things i have, i hate the people i met who've left me alone when they promised they'll always be there.
I hate the life im leading. I hate mandy.

Togetherness

Forgot to update about friday's outing with sheryl. Like, finally meet. LOL!
We headed to town to walk arnd. That day was damn funny. Cos we walked arnd and....... *it's between me and sheryl*
HAHAHA. We held hands like lesbian lor! But i like, *winks*
Lol!!!
That day we damn high one, living in our own world. Next time we must go cine again, our favourite place to walk. hahaha!
Then after that saw zhiwei and his friends. Went to pub tgt till 3+ then head to zhiwei's blk.
Talked about some stuffs and went home at 5+. Dead beat, especially when im with my bloody heels. LOL.

She didn't take her cam out, wasted. LOL.

(:

I can't take it anymore.

What a happy family i have. In other ppl's family. In every sunday morning, they would have breakfast tgt, chit chat tgt. What about my happy family? The robot in my house coulkd sleep till afternoon. Not bothering whether my sister got her lunch or breakfast or not.
Im so glad i got a mother who wholeheartedly love us care for us. Despite her long working hours, no matter how tired she is. She would buy breakfast for me and sister.
All this little actions really made me feel that i have to help her more. Maybe to many of you, this is what a mother should do. But for my mother it's different. I sympathise her so damn much. But i could do nothing......

And now, how about you my fucking elder brother?

Wow you so love your gf. And pls take this in mind. Im totally not against her. But against how intolerable your love towards her. Mother fucker, you dote on her so bloody much until me and mum finds it disgusting. I repeat, im not against her. When she said thank you to me just now, i was so furious initially and blaming her in my heart for making ridiculous request. But after hearing tht, i felt damn.. I know it wasn't her fault. I feel like a baddie, she's so innocent. I dont want her to feel that noone in this house welcomes her. Im angry at you not your gf mind you.
Why everytime we quarrel you can say sever ties so easily. I dont understand. Is it that this family no longer holds a place in you or is it that im just way too minor to you.
You always tell me how much you love me how much you blah blah blah me. No way, it's enough. I dont wanna hear all these anymore.
You and your fucking lies.

I had enough of a fanily like this. I hate this. WHAT A HAPPY FAMILY.

Sometimes im just so tired of all these, i wanna leave. I hate all these that im going through. Hate it so much............
How many times am i gonna cry over family issues, how many times will i feel likegiving up. I dont know.
Just shut up. I dont need someone like you.

Crazy woman.

Hi all! Finally there'll be pictures appearing. :D
So ytd me and pam went out last min, arnd 6 thn we met.


Then off to comerset to meet the guys and down to city hall for dinner. Lazed arnd at star bucks thn head home at 9++ (damn early) cos my baby pamela needa go home early. So everyone went home too.
Short and sweet day. :D

On train

uglyyyyyyyyy.

& fat

At star bucks/

She said she looked ugly so she censored her face -.-

Didn't take pictures witht he guys, next time hopefully.

:)

Presenting to you, my 2nd husband!!!!!!!
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ZHAO YOU TINGGGG.

He look damn korean i swear!

woo, gentleman me like~

Bad boy me like!!

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I see this pic i nearly suffocate. Damn angry.
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One of the scenes in his latest movie.

I want to crop that girl's face out thn fit mine in alr. HAHAHA.

WA DAMN HANDSOME RIGHT! My goodness. And i think he look like my eyecandy lor! Damn korean. Of cos not forgetting my 1st husband, xiang xiang. LOL!