Tears, i cannot control anymore.

Even though it's all over, and i know it was just a game of stupidity.

But..........

Sigh, i love you. Tc?

Life's so unfair to take away the one i love and give it to someone else.

Barnone sucks, st james still rocks.

Music no good, ambience no good. Fucked up crowd, smelly environment. hahaha.

Cos everyone sweating like free flow~ (damn smelly) Dont raise your armpits pls, smelly ppl. LOL.

But i still enjoyed myself, at least im not crying at home.

Everything beats than staying at home to cry. Like fucking emotional only........

:'(

I'll upload the pictures tmr! Many pics to upload, thought of it makes me fucking tired worxzxzxz.

nvm, if not my blog gonna turn wordy so very soon.

Numb myself with alcohol, keep myself occupied

with outings. This isn't what i want at all.......

I hope you're mine, but yet. I know it's impossible.

So i've to be so fucking fake to say, last long.

Ytd was suppose to say, "sibei happy 3 wks anniversary"

But i guess it doesn't hold any meaning anymore...................

So imma substituition? motherfucking heartpain...........

Ok, ytd went to meet sheryl and liwen!!! (:

But first group of ppl i met was jervis and gang. The group of dota freaks. LOL.

Luckily i went out, if not. I sure cry my life away!!

Readers, actually im fucking upset. Really.......

Sigh.

I know you wont read my pathetic blog, but.. Im really damn disappointed. Damn sad, damn heartpain.

From the start till now, it wasn't even true. Sigh......

Ok cont.

Accompanied them to play dota for a short while, wasn't good at it so i quit.

Otherwise kena scolding again. LOL!

Headed to minds cafe. It as fun down there... hehe.

I even lost in one game and was asked to take number from a guy. LOL!!

But i never save la, lol.

Then 8+ went to meet sheryl and liwen.

Cine>> Bangkok thai >> Club trust

hehe. Fun whenever im with them.

Ytd really quite upset. Kinda drunk and i started crying..

Seriously everytime i drunk i seldom cry one lor. Except for one time and tht was like ages ago?

LOL.

Everyone asked me not to cry. Aww, very touching.

Liwen

You were the first to hug me if i didn't rmb wrongly. Seriously all these mean alot to me.. At least when im feeling real awful i've friends around me like you. I rmb vividly she said anything about r/s call her to talk. She will understand me. Then she hugged me ask me to hush.

Liwen, you know also right? Whenever you've such problems can call me too. We were there for each other when we cried on different occasions.

LOL!!

Love you alot, best friend.

Sheryl

You're not very good at words and always give me harsh comments but i like. LOL!!!

I know you do love me ^^ hehe.

If i still rmb abit, i think you did hug me too. Yes you did. LOL.

love you alot, for your never ending laughters tht made me laugh my ass off.

hahaha.

Thats what's bout you isn't it? haha!

Man, i love you alot too!! Best friend. (:

Joanna

Darling!!! (:

Here's yours. haha!!

But i really need to thank you for keeping me company these few days.

Somehow we have common habits and thoughts. Dont feel bad and useless as a friend of mine for not being able to cheer me up.

Girls are like this right?

When we're alone we tend to be even more emotional. Sigh...

Really not your fault i love you!!

Pls come to me too, whenever you've problems.

We'll be each other's listening ear ya?

Love, <3>

LETS CLUB TONIGHT. HAHAHAHHA.

And lastly i have to thank my mother. :D Mummmy i love you for having breakfast with me and eating tuna sandwich tgt tht day. haha.

Alright, anyone st james tonight?!!!?!?!

I'll be there tonight.

Anyone interested in st james tonight pls come!! I'll be selling tickets. (broke, damn)

See you guys if possible!!

BIGGEST HUGS TO MY BEST FRIENDS.

It takes time, i guess? Sigh.

When you said, "i cannot betray my feelings. When im with you my heart is with **" it really makes me feel like a fool.

Damn.

Sigh, i still wish you all the best. If in time to come you think she's not for you, can you come bk to me? :'(

I could hear my heart making noise 24/7

Hi all. Im at joanna's house right now.....

Yea, feeling upset again. Sigh, i dont know how long must i keep myself like this.

Keeping myself busy, just to make sure i wont continue thinking of those shits that screw me up....

It's not the first time that such heart-wreaking stuffs happened to me, just tht one after another, worse and worst.........

I just didn't expect all these. Sigh.......

Lies, i cant afford to find out more.

Trust, no longer trusting those.

You? Cant stop thinking.

Sigh, cant wait for sunday. St. james!!!!!!!!!

Im just trying to do things to make myself smile more! Any idea what else?

Feel like crying you know.......

I guess it's true that dreams do come true (bad ones), while promises are meant to be broken.

Fuck that big timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I seriously dont know what to do, i keep sigh-ing non stop.

Stop tht mandy sim, but what can i do?

Im a loser indeed.

Boooooooos, for me.

Alright, readers pls tag me. I might feel better after reading tags? lol.

I love you, but is this what i deserve?

You taught me how to trust, but now you taught me how to not trust ppl again.

Sigh, pls come bk to me anyway.....

Thank joanna, for keeping me accompany. <3

Again

Cant stop crying when i type all these out...........

I love you :(

No mood to upload pictures. met up with joanna ytd..

Dont give up, i love you really.

I cannot say anything for now, i really dont know.

Dont give up on us.

Overwhelming thoughts

What does "I love you" mean to you?

A fullstop to end every msg and call?

Or just a way to comfort me?

Or, it just comes and goes without second thoughts whether you mean it or not?

Every "I love you" would become meaningless if you're not sincere about it.

I love you. :'(