My headache's not gone yet. :(

Got so many school work to complete!

Sometimes i really dont wanna study anymore, but on second thoughts.

I dont wanna disappoint my mother too. It's not like i totally got no interest in studying..

Just some factors affecting me.

Should hang on. 2 more months onlyy.

(:

Sometimes it's just harder to achieve something simple.

Liwen, i feel like talking to you lea. :'(

Dilema

Omg siaaaa. wtf is happening to me.
Never eat also want to vomit, eat also vomit everything out.
Dont ask me i pregnant or what, lol. Never do anything how the fuck i get pregnant!

And my headache is spinning me round and round.
Singing: you spin my head right round right round ~

I feel sick, like im gonna fall sick soon. F.
Although i love to fall sick..... but not at this time. Got so many work incomplete, and exams are approaching in no time. Cannot afford to be sick nowwwww.

Life is boring. Life is meaningless.
Life will be so much better with free flow of cash, free flow of laughter, free flow of love, free flow of time.

Bye, im off to let my head spin me right round. hahaha.

2 yrs ago, and now.

Friday, 10th july.

Happy birthday tianfu!! haha.

Friday went out with sheryl, liwen and the rest.

It was tianfu birthday, celebrated at music thai. :)

After music thai was club trust!

So much happened over there..

BUT

in the end, everything's alright.

:D

Pictures!

Tianfu!

His expression like damn sad like that. LOL

Nelson look sexy here, hahahahaha!

& The girls. :)

With their godmother. :)

So that was all!

Sunday met them again for another round of music thai. Before that went to cine for transformer! :D

after music thai everyone was damn tired alr, lol.

So we went to aunty's house for lepak-ing.

Sheryl wants to sleep but of cos, nonono. haha.

Went home at 6+. Really damn tired loooo.

Can you tell me what does those actions mean on that friday night?

Ass

Met with my best ytd. Liwen, sheryl, jasmine. :)
I drunk again!!! But i realise they love me alot. HAHAHAHA.
Bye, update soon.

You always do unexpected things all of a sudden, leaving me pondering over what you've done.
what is this!! lol.

I miss the old times when i used to laugh at the littlest thing.

OMG.

So many schoolwork, so many thoughts.

So many stressssssss.

So many problems.

But so little comfort i have, so little warmth i get.

So little love i received.........

So little determination and courage.

It feels like a part of me is gone, ass.

It's becoming a habit to vomit out my food. haha.

Thats about it.

I should just shut the fuck up and die.
I seriously dont mean anything. Enough said, i dont wanna say these anymore. I feeel tired alr, i feel upset enough that i cant be anymore upset.
I feel like a fool and nothing else.
From the bottoms of my heart, i wish you two all the best.

Im not the generous kind, but im not the wicked kind either. I wont want to cause any problems between you both, never.

So what if i really feel god damn awful right now, it doesn't matter anymore.
Tc and all the best.
This will be the last post about alll these, no more. Because i really feel tired and really feel like one idiot typing all these. For what? Sympathism? Nah, no need.

Im to blame for all these, then.

So many doubts, but you cleared them. Now, who's gonna bring the trust bk again?

As i read through those msgs, i think. From the start till now, i wonder whats true in those msgs. I actually still smiled as reading them, till the recent ones. I teared, what was all this all about?
Told you i cannot take anymore failures in r/s, and yet you failed me throughout.
No, im not blaming you. Im not...... Sigh. I just dont understand why. Why are you able to say all those stuffs when you dont mean it. Why do this to me. Why even lie to me for the reason of break up.
It's not about minimizing the pain, dont you know it would hurt even more when im the one who saw it with my own eyes about the truth? Lies lies lies. That was all about us.
Pains me to see and feel how loving you both are...... but what else can i do except for seeing just that?
I wished for you to come bk to me, but somehow it feels so impossible.
It's alright now, i feel so...........

Tc!